I shot a man who’s emo, just to watch him die.

An otherwise pleasant evening out with friends ended early because I was getting too anxious. Things annoy me lately that shouldn’t; also, my cognitive problems continue. I misremember things, or can’t think of a word, or I say the wrong thing while aware that I’m doing so, which really isn’t fun.

I’m trying to come to terms with the fact that I am going to be alone for life, and it’s difficult.

However, I ate a really good french dip sandwich tonight. klikitak is hilarious and smart, and I don’t see enough of her.

Got some great music in the mail today, from Canada: Rough Trade and 54.40 CDs from the 80s that you can’t really get down here at all. Thank you, Maplemusic.

“Character is psychosis” — Otto Rank

Scientology + Florida

via Stoatmaster, via religionblog, via the St. Petersburg Times, we have a heartwarming tale of cracked-out Scientologists, genially corrupt Florida legislators, and hapless children.

Scientologists push mental health law

Opponents say the legislation takes advantage of lingering stigma and will deter parents from seeking help for their children.

By ALISA ULFERTS, Times Staff Writer
Published April 9, 2005

TALLAHASSEE – Legislation backed by an offshoot of the Church of Scientology aims to discourage public school students from seeking mental health services.

The measure would require schools to tell parents that any mental health treatment would be part of a student’s permanent record, which is true only in limited cases now.

It also would require school officials to tell parents that no medical test can diagnose mental illness, they can refuse psychological screening and that students can’t be barred from school activities if they refuse treatment.

The bills (HB209 and SB1766) are being pushed by the Citizens Commission on Human Rights, or CCHR, established in 1969 by the Church of Scientology to carry out its mental health mission. Scientologists oppose psychiatry and other mental health services.

The legislation is being fought by several mental health organizations, including the state Office of Suicide Prevention.

The sponsors, Tampa Republican Sen. Victor Crist and Miami Beach Republican Rep. Gustavo Barreiro, were guest speakers recently at Scientology’s anniversary celebration. Crist touted the bill at the event and Barreiro gave the church an award for its volunteer efforts during last summer’s hurricanes.

Barreiro acknowledged that the Scientology group approached him about sponsoring the bill and wrote parts it. But he said he’s sponsoring the bill because he believes in it.

“The path of least resistance is to medicate rather than find creative ways to help kids,” Barreiro said. “What is the worst case scenario if this bill passes? We move toward the middle and medicate less.”

Said Crist: “Parents ultimately need to have control over their children’s medications.”

That an arm of the church, once so controversial that politicians avoided being associated with it, is advancing legislation to further one of its main tenets is a testament to the success of Scientology’s recent campaign to change its image.

Mary Panton, the CCHR member lobbying for the bill, said parents should worry that their children are labeled mentally ill.

“Parents aren’t told that when you accept that label it follows you for the rest of your life,” Panton said. “All we want is for the parents to have the full picture.”

But opponents say the bill could dissuade some parents from seeking treatment for a child with mental illness.

Mental illness is noted in student records only if the school is involved in treatment or the illness requires special education, according to the state Department of Education.

Opponents say the bill’s backers are taking advantage of the lingering shame over mental illness to further an anti-psychiatry agenda.

“No matter how far we have come in understanding depression as a biochemical disease, there is still a certain amount of shame attached to it,” said Donna Sicilian, supervisor for social services for the Pinellas County School District. “Bills like these, particularly with the wording that was chosen, perpetuate that.”

Sicilian, president of the Florida Association of School Social Workers, said many students need some kind of mental health service, such as counseling during divorce.

The House bill would require schools to include any mental illness diagnosis – including depression and schizophrenia – in a student’s permanent record, regardless of whether the student needs special education classes to manage the disorder.

The Senate bill, which would prohibit school officials from making any mental referrals, appears stalled.

Barreiro has been lauded by the Church of Scientology for standing up against what it calls human rights abuses promulgated by psychiatrists.

But, like the church, Barreiro says he is skeptical of the way mental disorders are diagnosed through the observation of symptoms rather than medical tests.

“It isn’t like you can take a blood test. … This is so subjective,” Barreiro said.

Barreiro said physical problems are often ignored, leading to the overuse of psychotropic drugs.

The legislation has caught the eye of Jim McDonough, who heads the state’s offices of drug control and suicide prevention.

Since speaking out against the bill in committee meetings, McDonough has been bombarded by public records requests from Scientologists asking for proof of his statement that mental illness is a biochemical disorder.

McDonough agrees that some prescription drugs – including anti-anxiety and antipsychotic drugs – are over-prescribed. But his greatest concern, McDonough said, is in ensuring that potentially suicidal teenagers have access to the mental health services.

Teenagers need to understand that mental illness is a disease that can be treated, McDonough said.

“I do resist the abuse of prescription drugs and the unmedical use of psychotropic drugs, but I absolutely believe in the medical basis of mental illness,” McDonough said.

Blogdonts

I have broken most of these rules myself. I present: Blog Don’ts. Most of you already know all of these already from years ago when it was called “netiquette” and no one followed it either, but I felt like writing them down because I am a bitter asswipe who is full of darkness.

  1. Announce your departure or hiatus to the world. “Goodbye my Internet Friends Forever” is always a mistake. If you want to leave or go on a break, just do so. When you announce it, people feel that you’re begging for compliments. Also, if you don’t absolutely mean it, you look like a total idiot when you come back the next day and post that “What Pokemon are you” quiz. And if you’re trying to avoid evil stalkers, you just gave them free information; don’t ever do that!
  2. Post opinionated material and ask people not to disagree with you. If you didn’t want people to disagree with you, why’d y’all post it on the Internet? You can get one way communication by yelling at your cat. If it’s on a weblog with comments open, you just started a conversation with primates, who are more ornery.
  3. Post stuff about your job without locking it. Getting fired is only one of a number of exciting things that will happen as a result.
  4. Ask the Internet for expert advice on serious matters (health care, food safety, wild animals, firearms, nutrition, the Law, explosives, taxes). Everyone has an opinion and no one is an expert and no one will be there for you when the coatimundi bites your epiglottis off or the Secret Service arrests you on 53 felony counts of interstate impersonation of a veterinarian. Either look it up somewhere real, or pay someone professional.
  5. Post a shocking or funny story without checking it on Snopes.com or another usually reliable third party first. You’re not helping anyone by spreading Fear, Uncertainty, and Doubt even if cutting and pasting looks so easy. Also, they’re all going to laugh at you, they’re all going to laugh at you.
  6. Post cryptic hints of some important or disturbing event. “And now I’m off to sob into my pillow about things that must remain unsaid”. “And my new crush on someone about whom I cannot reveal anything is making me crazy.” People will then ask you what is going on, and if you don’t answer you’re just being a tiresome tease. Eventually people will just stop paying attention to you even when your hair is on fire, because burned out. Coy is the lose.
  7. Ask for help if you don’t want it. If you say things like “If I could only make this thing better about my life I’d be so happy. Doesn’t anyone care?” you will, if you’re lucky enough to have friends, get responses full of advice. The advice may be dumb or dangerous or useless, but it’s not meant to be, and you just invited it. Be nicer to the people who respond.
  8. Post lists of things not to do, or people will quote them at you in the future, the bitches.

$19.38

Got nastygram from “Certegy”, who wants $19.38 from me because of a “dishonored check” to Netflix.

Look at Netflix’s site. They have accurate information for me but will not honor it, because they say Certegy says I’m a dishonorable check writer type of person.

Call Certegy. Drone tells me he can do nothing, cannot see transaction information, I must contact Netflix and correct my info.

I go to correct my information, re-enter all information, Netflix once again says that I am dishonorable and that I must contact Certegy.

I call Certegy again. After 15 minutes on hold, I explain to John that I am not dishonorable, and that I wish to find out why they think I am, and that this is serious because their nastygram says that they are going to put me in the database of bad people and I won’t ever be able to have ice cream again. John claims that he knows nothing except that a transaction was refused. John stonewalls me, then claims to be giving me to a supervisor.

After another 15 minutes on hold, I get someone’s voice mail. I leave a message.

I then cancel my Netflix membership after giving them alternative credit card billing information. Because I don’t want any more service like this and I’m out of cash lately, I also cancel Gamefly..

My head just exploded.

From the WSJ. How, exactly, is this different from a regular capitalist mutual fond that makes money? Is it just that it panders to Foxnewsian neofascist dumbasses, or that it actually tries to be, you know, evil?

New Mutual Fund Aiming To Beat Back Social Activism

NEW YORK — One mutual fund is mad as hell, and it’s not going to take it any more.

The Free Enterprise Action Fund, a new fund with a stock portfolio of about $4 million, says it is the first with the main goal of promoting “the American system of free enterprise.”

Founded by Steven Milloy, a columnist for FoxNews.com and The New York Sun, the fund aims to get good returns for investors while – in his words – evening the score with leftist forces that are chipping away at business. Culprits include corporate management, mutual funds and other groups that promote so-called corporate social responsibility.

“Businesses are being pressured by radical politicized left-wing activists to do things not in the best interest of the whole free-enterprise system,” said Milloy, also an adjunct scholar at the Cato Institute and publisher of junkscience.com, a commentary site that bears the motto: “All the junk that’s fit to debunk.” “We want to be a counterforce to the activists,” Milloy added.

apparently liberal investors are a threat?