Had sushi with A. tonight, which was bittersweet. Hadn’t seen her in forever and she’s doing well, which is great. Has a really good job now, very nice boyfriend who sounds better than every guy she’s dated, etc. I’m still a little bit crushed on her, hence the bittersweet, but she’s such a good friend that I’m always happy to see her. Since she lives 60 miles away now, it’s rare for us to see each other.
The school at which she teaches is public but run like a crazy right-wing private school because of the teachers. She was told to can it when she talked to students about fuel efficiency and the environmental advantages of less piggy vehicles because so many parents drive SUVs, and one teacher wrote the 10 Commandments on a blackboard with “11. Vote for George Bush in 2004” added, right before the election. Lots of other examples. The kids themselves are great, though: very focused, good readers, intent on learning.
Almost every night now I dream that I’m hated, usually by my family. It’s unpleasant as hell. I reflected today that there are a number of reasons to hate me. Of course, in the dream it’s not about my actual flaws but about crazy dream stuff.
Lately I get the feeling that I miss someone, or that I wish someone would come back. Then I realize that I miss someone who’s never been here and never will, and in fact doesn’t exist. At 40, it’s hard to pull off an imaginary friend.
Be My Blog 
You’re the only one I want now
I never heard your name.
Let’s hope we meet some day
if we don’t it’s all the same.
I’ll meet the ones between us,
and be thinkin’ ’bout you
and all the places I have seen
and why you were not there.
-Townes van Zandt
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along the same lines
I miss you
But I haven’t met you yet
So special
But it hasn’t happened yet
You are gorgeous
But I haven’t met you yet
I remember
But it hasn’t happened yet
And if you believe in dreams
Or what is more important
That a dream can come true
I will meet you
I was peaking
But it hasn’t happened yet
I haven’t been given
My best souvenir
I miss you
But I haven’t met you yet
I know your habits
But wouldn’t recognize you yet
And if you believe in dreams
Or what is more important
That a dream can come true
I will meet you
I’m so impatient
I can’t stand the wait..
-bjork
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Re: along the same lines
Wonderful. 🙂
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Re: along the same lines
drunk response! 😛
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In my dreams I’m even more unpleasant to my relatives than they are to me.
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You probably DO miss people though, I mean, about 7 of your friends moved to another part of the country in the last year and you have friends all over the place that you miss and don’t see often!
I have been missing you lots and am working on my trip down south.
😉
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I have an imaginary friend. Her name is Cupcake. She is my inner 5 year old and I excuse any poor behavior on my part to her.
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