HELL IS FOR CHILDREN!!1!

Emo people, Hipsters
Circle I Limbo

SUV Drivers, Eric S. Raymond, That Guy in the Second Row
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Libertarians, Greenpeace
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Ralph Nader
Circle IV Rolling Weights

Mormons, Objectivists
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Creationists, New Agers
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

Neoconservatives
Circle VII Burning Sands

Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies, Scientologists
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Bill Frist, Skinheads
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

The marketer is then launched into the woodchipper

One of our developers, who was debugging a nasty problem on the website I help manage, just said that our site was a Rube Goldberg apparatus and he could not figure it out.

He’s right. I’m no cartoonist, but I was able to sum ours up for him and the project manager to their satisfaction:

The exec VP reaches for the bonus and falls onto his assistant, who drops her bag of cheetos onto the front-end programmer. he lets go of his nintendo to get the cheetos and the nintendo rolls down a slope onto the sysadmin, who wakes up and restarts the server.

But to lose all my senses, that’s just so typically me.

Boy, if you have a problem with negativity in print you might want to avoid this thing for a while. I am entering the zone of the Grump that Passeth Understanding.

Tonight was Morons on Wheels in the O.C. Two people in the requisite gigantic SUV’s ran red lights and nearly freakin’ killed me. Then I saw a guy who had somehow driven his car at a good clip right into the center divider, where it was steaming and resting at a crazy angle on some pointy piece of city property as he and his buddy looked glum. In my current mood I just laughed and drove on. I probably should have helped.

Myself, I spent too much time today thinking about whether my new exciting metabolic disaster meant that my blood was eating me up from the inside, and also wondering if I would ever get to really enjoy food again or if I’d just have to treat it as medicine from now on. It’s a huge downer. I’m not going to pretend otherwise. When I think about it I get so angry I want to punch a hole in the wall and/or my head.

At this stage in my existence I have no love life or any reason to expect any, no career advancement likely, another chronic illness already making life somewhat more difficult and limiting and expensive, and no obvious way to change any of those things. I didn’t need this shit. One thing I had was food: I’m a good cook, I know a lot about food, I can prepare food for others and they enjoy it, I can match wine to food. It’s not just a cool hobby, it’s a way of expressing myself. This is probably over with now. What gets taken away next?

Personal inventory:

  1. Chronic depression, somewhat treated, since 1986
  2. 50 pounds overweight
  3. No love life for the last whenever. Not much hope of any
  4. Career stalled without any way of moving up
  5. Metabolic syndrome/insulin resistance syndrome/diabetes Lite/diabetes/WHATEVER THE FUCK THEY CALL IT THIS WEEK
  6. A fine set of well-polished, durable, self-destructive neuroses

I get up every day and live my life as best as I can, fixing little bits of broken crap here and there, and put a good face on it. Only because it’s expected of me by others. And I’m nothing if not obedient.

Burned all my notebooks. What good are notebooks?

I had my first experience with diabetes education today, and it wasn’t as bad as I had expected actually. First of all the nurse was smart and well-organized, and presented the science bits well. There was dumbing down (“the fight or flight hormones are stronger than the insulin so it can’t work right”) but not too much of it. The K.I.S.S. rule was followed.

The device for measuring blood sugar is from an apparently clued-in outfit who provide a simple and effective device. They also provide lots of interesting geek tools for managing your body’s performance stats, including a customized Handspring device, a web interface for storing info, and a PC interface cable. For the last of these they’ve released the data format so that you can just buy the cable and roll your own software if you want. I applaud this!

The only real negative from today’s experience was the psychological part of the class, which was so dumb as to be offensive. Lots of office-lady humor, humiliating simplification and patronizing garbage. I bit my tongue a lot, reminding myself that I didn’t have to buy into the dreadful Kewpie-doll mentality as long as I paid attention to the science stuff and the good advice and the useful procedures for avoiding doom.

Plus I tricked myself into buying a new Palm device. ::go to wait by mailbox::

All your patriot are belong to us

And this somewhat english spam just in:

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Please log on to http://www.theamericanresolve.com to own and treasure this magnificent, commemorative memento and help us help do a lot of good to the children victims and starving children wherever they are. This is the Mission of this Initiative.

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I’m imagining a Nigerian version of Krusty the Klown, here.