Interesting discussion with the psychologist today. One thing I’ve recently noticed is that I have difficulty seeing the impact I have on others. It goes beyond thinking that I am an unimportant person or that I am not valued; that’s just self-dislike. In my case I literally can’t perceive that things I say or do are important to others.
Tragicomic scenarios result: Surprise when others are hurt or offended by my behavior, someone explains that a thoughtless remark of mine had some huge impact, etc.
The weirdest bit is that am intensely — unpleasantly — empathic. I’m acutely aware of other people’s emotional state, to the extent that I can’t be around arguments and I avoid a lot of plays or movies. Something that connects the empathy to my own actions is just…missing.
Lots of discussion ensued about the squishy brain parts that are responsible for these connections, and what to do about it using her 21st Century Mesmeric Hypnomancy.