Made a good dinner. The tomato-based lamb curry again, this time with more fennel and asafoetida. I remembered not to put the yogurt in until the very end, so it didn’t separate and curdle. Also, cashews. Used Lundberg Wild Blend Rice, which is the most awesome blend of rices ever. Cucumber and sweet yellow pepper salad with a dill and black pepper sauce.
Therapy session was mostly about managing sensory overload and emotional swings from the neurofeedback.
Lately I’ve been feeling angry lately about being left out, left behind, rejected. It’s not overpowering but it is pretty constant. That, and the depressive self-hatred. I know that the amped-up bad feelings are a side effect, but that’s sort of like knowing that you’re hallucinating: only partly helpful.
I made a long bet for next year’s medical costs out of pocket and put money into an FSA. Hope that works as well as it should.