On 20 mg of Adderall XR, 300 mg of Wellbutrin, and 10 mg of Lexapro, I feel kind of normal. The way I felt on a pretty good day when I was 18.
This means that I have to tweak the fuck out of my dopamine and serotonin mechanisms to get to anything like a reasonable baseline, which sucks. Especially since the new drug (Adderall XR) cost me $96 for one month’s dosage, after the discount on my plan. My total monthly cost for prescription and OTC drugs for my various diagnoses is about $250 now. Add therapy and psychiatric visits and my outlay for medical costs is almost $1000 per month. Good thing I’ve managed to make decent money.
Because the cool part is that some of this stuff actually works, and I’m not covered with roaches gibbering in an alley, or being trepanned, or dead, or in jail.