spring hurts sometimes

I have appointments with two psychology professionals and one medical doctor this week.

Monk playing piano helps smooth things out during difficult weeks.

I realized the other day that the week is my basic unit of time. I think in terms of weekdays and weekends, and what happens on what days. I really do not notice months or years. Could this be a problem?

I’m not sure I like being at D’s very much lately. The patio atmosphere means that I never actually have a conversation with one person, even when I really need to. Someone else always shows up and it’s time to tell jokes or tell work stories instead of whatever happens. Or someone more important than me shows up and I feel small. It’s high school.

I haven’t smoked in a couple days and I don’t really notice that. This seems good to know that I enjoy smoking but it doesn’t seem to be a constant requirement. Same with alcohol. Haven’t wanted any, haven’t had any for a bit.

The Rickie Lee Jones song “Satellites” keeps popping into my head, as does “The Kids Are All Right” by the Who.

If I had what you wanted, I’d give it to you, you know. You do know, don’t you?

5 thoughts on “spring hurts sometimes

  1. I know them all pretty well
    Group settings are not a problem for me. Group settings taking place of what should be a tête-à-tête meeting are. Part of it is that I can be terribly shy, and part is there are simply some things that need not be aired in the open.
    It’s not that I don’t like other people. It’s just that it’s nice to be alone with someone. Sometimes it’s necessary.

  2. I hear you there
    Sometimes I just need that solace of a one on one conversation with someone I know will take me seriously. Someone I know will understand what it is I am trying to say.
    It is not always easy trying to make yourself understood by “the masses”
    Sometimes, I get sick to death of those pointless conversations that include nothing but mindless banter.
    But those topics that require more than two brain cells also tend to start quarrels because my opinions on such subjects are never very popular.
    Oh well

  3. I dislike group convo’s for a whole nother reasom.
    And as for your last line,I’d say the same back. I hope you do know. In this case I know what you want, but I don’t know how to give it to you.

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